I'm a wedding photographer?

Here I am. Sitting in a dark studio. Looking at images of girls in wedding dresses, and all that I can think is: "How did I get to this place in my life?" I thank God for the amazing opportunities that He has provided for me throughout my life, but I am continually suprised by the places that He takes me. I mean, there is no way that I would have thought that within 2 years of graduation that I would be working in a photography studio, and I definitely would not have thought that I would be a wedding photographer. However, I am, and I am happy. I am in a completely different place in my life than I would have planned for myself only a few years ago, but I am in the exact place where I need to be. Isn't it funny how the plans that we make for ourselves are never as good as the ones that God makes? I mean, I always think that I have the best plan for my life, but I never end up where I think that I am going to go. So, I think that the most important lesson that I can learn from all of this is that I don't have everything figured out. However, I am so happy that I can trust in the God who created the universe to plan out every step that I will take. He has a plan for every event in our lives, and He knows what He is doing when He sends random and even painful events into our lives. He wants to make us people who are completely different from who we are today. I mean, who knows, one of you might wake up 2 years from now in the exact same place that I am. So, that being said, the path to this place in my life was not straight, and it was definitely confusing. But, I am in a place where all I can do is trust and thank God that I am not where I was before, and who knows, maybe I will be someone completely different two years from now. The great thing is that I am excited about it and not worried that I don't have everything figured out. It is great to let go of the tight grip that I have on my life and let God move me where He wants. Let's be honest, He's going to do it whether I want Him to or not. So, why not embrace the ride and have fun trusting God and His infinitely wisdom to plan the rest of my life?

Just trying to understand it all,
josh

Lacking in creativity

In recent years, I have made a valient attempt to become an artistic and creative person. However, it isn't working out so well. I have taken up photography, which I am decent at, but in comparison to those around me, I need some work. I have also given painting a shot. I am not good at it, but it is suprisingly fun. And lastly, I have always wished that I could create music. I appreciate music so much, but I don't have a musical bone in my body. So, there it is. That brings me to this week. I have made a few valient attempts to paint, but alas, I have not even picked up a paint brush. I see so many things that inspire me, and I am even inspired by many paintings. However, I can't seem to translate this inspiration into a tangible piece of art. So, here's what I am going to do: keep trying. My goal is to create something this week. After all, I have to start somewhere. Who knows, maybe I will catch on to the whole creativity thing one day, and I promise you that I will run with it. So, if I paint anything cool or take any cool pictures this week, I will post them on here. But I wouldn't hold your breathe (that is me speaking to all of the nonexistent readers of my blog.) Anyways, that's it for now. Maybe I am the next Bob Ross and don't even know it. I will keep you updated on this search for my creative ability that has been hiding for a long time.

josh

Here is an awesome link

http://boutwellstudio.com/blougbloug/?page_id=25

Go to this website to play the original Super Mario. I love this game.

It works best with firefox.

Monday's are long days...

"Sometimes i pray for a slap in the face, and then beg to be spared cause i'm a coward..."

I just read this quote on Erin Eade's facebook profile, and it described the way I feel so often. How often do you find yourself getting caught up in the world, and you ask God to do something to get you back on track? However, this is a dangerous prayer because God might actually answer it. This is the delima that I find myself in over and over again. I want God to break me of my sinful nature, but then I think about all of the things that He might use to accomplish this and ask God to break me gently. Can being broken ever feel good? I don't really think so. So, this is the issue. We want to be broken, but we so badly want our Christian walk to be easy and pain free. We are cowards. We settle for a lesser joy because of a little bit of pain. God help me to overcome this weekness and welcome the suffering that You will use to point the world to You. God give me courage to allow You to slap me in the face.

josh

Wasp Attack

I gigantic wasp just flew into our house. Caleb killed it with his bare hands. Here is a picure of it. It really is the biggest wasp that I have ever seen.

I had an original idea....

So, here's the deal. Sometimes I have so many things going on in my head that I forget to slow down and actually think about things. I mean, I think about them, but I don't really think about them. This blog is an attempt to break that cycle. I don't intend to write anything worth reading, and I don't blame the reader of this for never returning to my blog. That isn't the point. This blog is for me. Call me selfish. I understand, but I just want to have an avenue to express my thoughts and force myself to think about the things going on in my life. There you go. Do with it what you will. We will see how this goes.

josh